I keep forgetting she’s no longer here. It happened so many times today, I’d think “ohh she’s love that”, or “when it gets warmer I’ll ask if she wants to go there”..
It’s hard to believe she’s gone and she’s never coming back.
I’ve also gotten so used to James being here, running over to stay the night when I’m sad, wiping my tears and rocking me to sleep. Now he’s not here I realise how much I rely on him, how much I need him to come home.
I wish he could see this now so he knows how sorry I am for taking up so much of his life with my sadness.